Sunday, December 19, 2010
Friday, December 17, 2010
Monday, December 6, 2010
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Friday, November 5, 2010
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Happy Birthday Bez
October 25, 2010
Today is my bezfrhen's birthday. I'm supposed to create a video for her. I can Wait Forever by Simple Plan? The song and it's message is nice but I think the song is more of "for me". Far Away by Nickelback? It's one of my all time favorite songs but this song is still more of "for me. I guess the most appropriate song for her is Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. I know she really liked this song. But since I don't have a quality time last week, I was not able to make this. Soon, I'll finish the video and I know she'll like it. The concept is in my head. I'm still having a hard time on how can I upload this in youtube without encountering some "rights" issue.
I called her a while ago, for just a minute. I hope she's happy today, I guess she is, and I know she will be. I'm still bothered about "us", which is never true IMO. I believe she's with somebody else right now. *erase-erase-erase*.
I just wish that she'll be happy for the rest of her life and she'll find the man she deserves and that will make her feel how beautiful life is and that there's always hope after the rain. I may not be that man, but I hope I'll be the friend that will guide her and be with her as she make her dreams come true.
I really miss her. I just can't show it, but inside my mind and my heart.. I do.. When will I see you again..
Happy Birthday Bez.. :D
Today is my bezfrhen's birthday. I'm supposed to create a video for her. I can Wait Forever by Simple Plan? The song and it's message is nice but I think the song is more of "for me". Far Away by Nickelback? It's one of my all time favorite songs but this song is still more of "for me. I guess the most appropriate song for her is Your Guardian Angel by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. I know she really liked this song. But since I don't have a quality time last week, I was not able to make this. Soon, I'll finish the video and I know she'll like it. The concept is in my head. I'm still having a hard time on how can I upload this in youtube without encountering some "rights" issue.
I called her a while ago, for just a minute. I hope she's happy today, I guess she is, and I know she will be. I'm still bothered about "us", which is never true IMO. I believe she's with somebody else right now. *erase-erase-erase*.
I just wish that she'll be happy for the rest of her life and she'll find the man she deserves and that will make her feel how beautiful life is and that there's always hope after the rain. I may not be that man, but I hope I'll be the friend that will guide her and be with her as she make her dreams come true.
I really miss her. I just can't show it, but inside my mind and my heart.. I do.. When will I see you again..
Happy Birthday Bez.. :D
Europe Tour (Oct 27-Nov 23)(w/ special guest Ryan Cabrera)
I hope their next stop will be here in Philippines, here in Cebu. Boyce Avenue and Ryan Cabrera are my favorite acoustic singers.. I've already watched Boyce Avenue and Kris Allen last February.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Sunday, October 3, 2010
2010 Environmental Photographer of the Year Winners
National Geographic Channel named the Best Eco-Photos of 2010.
Flight of the Rays
This aerial image of Munk's devil rays is the winner for the Underworld Category and the overall winner of the 2010 Environmental Photographer of the Year Awards.
Photographer Florian Schulz of Germany took this amazing picture as the Munk's devil rays crowd the Sea of Cortez off Mexico's Baja California Sur state map in 2009.
Munk's devil rays are listed as near threatened by the International Union for Conservation Union, partly because to their vulnerability to gill nets. Imagine how many devil rays could be captured with a single net.
Birthplace
Taken by underwater photographer Bela Nasfay, this picture shows clumps of common frog tadpole eggs on the bottom of a spring-fed Hungarian mountain lake.
Life for Rent
A man makes eye contact with Nodi, a 15-year-old sex worker at a brothel in Fardipur, Bangladesh, in G.M.B. Akash's winning picture. Nodi was sold to the brothel by her stepmother.
Bioremidiation
This winning picture by Rowan E. Bestmann captures channels and causeways in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia, constructed to purify local gray water — wastewater from household activities such as bathing and laundering—for reuse.
Backwash
Like an erupting Mount Fuji, a wave takes on a perfect, peaked form in a winning picture by Australian photographer Julienne Bowser, who snapped the image at Snapper Rocks on the Queensland coast.
Supermarket workers purge thawed food from powerless freezers in the wake of the biggest floods in decades to wash through the rural town of Charleville, Australia—as captured by Rowan E. Bestmann, who also won the "Innovation in the Environment" category.
The March 2010 floods were triggered when a monsoonal low dumped heavy rains in southwestern Queensland state, ending several years of drought.
Photo Credits: National Geographic Channel
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| Over all Winner: Flight of the Rays |
This aerial image of Munk's devil rays is the winner for the Underworld Category and the overall winner of the 2010 Environmental Photographer of the Year Awards.
Photographer Florian Schulz of Germany took this amazing picture as the Munk's devil rays crowd the Sea of Cortez off Mexico's Baja California Sur state map in 2009.
Munk's devil rays are listed as near threatened by the International Union for Conservation Union, partly because to their vulnerability to gill nets. Imagine how many devil rays could be captured with a single net.
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| Underwater-World Finalist: Hide And Seek |
Hide and Seek
Estonian photographer Kaido Haagen took this picture of a gray seal poking its head through the clouds of plant life.
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| Underwater-World Finalist: Birthplace |
Taken by underwater photographer Bela Nasfay, this picture shows clumps of common frog tadpole eggs on the bottom of a spring-fed Hungarian mountain lake.
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| Under-21 Winner: The Fortune Teller |
The Fortune Teller
Bulgarian photographer Radoslav Radoslavov Valkov won the top prize for "Under 21" category of the 2010 Young Environmental Photographer of the Year Award with this picture of a fly that rubs a bead of water, which looks like a crystal ball, in his backyard.
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| Quality-of-Life Winner: Life for Rent |
A man makes eye contact with Nodi, a 15-year-old sex worker at a brothel in Fardipur, Bangladesh, in G.M.B. Akash's winning picture. Nodi was sold to the brothel by her stepmother.
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| Innovation-in-the-Environment Winner: Bioremidiation |
This winning picture by Rowan E. Bestmann captures channels and causeways in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia, constructed to purify local gray water — wastewater from household activities such as bathing and laundering—for reuse.
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| Natural-World Winner: Fly to Eye |
Fly to Eye
A green pit viper eyes a hummingbird in Hungarian photographer Bence Mate's winning picture.
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| Natural-World Finalist: Backwash |
Like an erupting Mount Fuji, a wave takes on a perfect, peaked form in a winning picture by Australian photographer Julienne Bowser, who snapped the image at Snapper Rocks on the Queensland coast.
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| View-of-the-Western-World Winner: Waste Not Want Not |
Waste Not Want Not
Supermarket workers purge thawed food from powerless freezers in the wake of the biggest floods in decades to wash through the rural town of Charleville, Australia—as captured by Rowan E. Bestmann, who also won the "Innovation in the Environment" category.
The March 2010 floods were triggered when a monsoonal low dumped heavy rains in southwestern Queensland state, ending several years of drought.
Photo Credits: National Geographic Channel
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
October 2010
Welcome October! 3 more months before the year ends. Time flies. I hope this will be a better month for me.
Mike Tyson and Wayne Brady - Every Little Step (Comedy Spoof)
Who said Mike Tyson is only good in Boxing?
Goldilocks - New Found Planet
Goldilocks Planet - this could be next Earth. Do life also exist in this planet?
Source: news.yahoo.com
Source: news.yahoo.com
WASHINGTON – Astronomers say they have for the first time spotted a planet beyond our own in what is sometimes called the Goldilockszone for life: Not too hot, not too cold. Juuuust right.
Not too far from its star, not too close. So it could contain liquid water. The planet itself is neither too big nor too small for the proper surface, gravity and atmosphere.
It's just right. Just like Earth.
"This really is the first Goldilocks planet," said co-discoverer R. Paul Butler of the Carnegie Institution of Washington.
The new planet sits smack in the middle of what astronomers refer to as the habitable zone, unlike any of the nearly 500 other planets astronomers have found outside our solar system. And it is in our galactic neighborhood, suggesting that plenty of Earth-like planets circle other stars.
Finding a planet that could potentially support life is a major step toward answering the timeless question: Are we alone?
Scientists have jumped the gun before on proclaiming that planets outside our solar system were habitable only to have them turn out to be not quite so conducive to life. But this one is so clearly in the right zone that five outside astronomers told The Associated Press it seems to be the real thing.
"This is the first one I'm truly excited about," said Penn State University's Jim Kasting. He said this planet is a "pretty prime candidate" for harboring life.
Life on other planets doesn't mean E.T. Even a simple single-cell bacteria or the equivalent of shower mold would shake perceptions about the uniqueness of life on Earth.
But there are still many unanswered questions about this strange planet. It is about three times the mass of Earth, slightly larger in width and much closer to its star — 14 million miles away versus 93 million. It's so close to its version of the sun that it orbits every 37 days. And it doesn't rotate much, so one side is almost always bright, the other dark.
Temperatures can be as hot as 160 degrees or as frigid as 25 degrees below zero, but in between — in the land of constant sunrise — it would be "shirt-sleeve weather," said co-discoverer Steven Vogt of the University of California at Santa Cruz.
It's unknown whether water actually exists on the planet, and what kind of atmosphere it has. But because conditions are ideal for liquid water, and because there always seems to be life on Earth where there is water, Vogt believes "that chances for life on this planet are 100 percent."
The astronomers' findings are being published in Astrophysical Journal and were announced by the National Science Foundation on Wednesday.
The planet circles a star called Gliese 581. It's about 120 trillion miles away, so it would take several generations for a spaceship to get there. It may seem like a long distance, but in the scheme of the vast universe, this planet is "like right in our face, right next door to us," Vogt said in an interview.
That close proximity and the way it was found so early in astronomers' search for habitable planets hints to scientists that planets like Earth are probably not that rare.
Vogt and Butler ran some calculations, with giant fudge factors built in, and figured that as much as one out of five to 10 stars in the universe have planets that are Earth-sized and in the habitable zone.
With an estimated 200 billion stars in the universe, that means maybe 40 billion planets that have the potential for life, Vogt said. However, Ohio State University's Scott Gaudi cautioned that is too speculative about how common these planets are.
Vogt and Butler used ground-based telescopes to track the star's precise movements over 11 years and watch for wobbles that indicate planets are circling it. The newly discovered planet is actually the sixth found circling Gliese 581. Two looked promising for habitability for a while, another turned out to be too hot and the fifth is likely too cold. This sixth one bracketed right in the sweet spot in between, Vogt said.
With the star designated "a," its sixth planet is called Gliese 581g.
"It's not a very interesting name and it's a beautiful planet," Vogt said. Unofficially, he's named it after his wife: "I call it Zarmina's World."
The star Gliese 581 is a dwarf, about one-third the strength of our sun. Because of that, it can't be seen without a telescope from Earth, although it is in the Libra constellation, Vogt said.
But if you were standing on this new planet, you could easily see our sun, Butler said.
The low-energy dwarf star will live on for billions of years, much longer than our sun, he said. And that just increases the likelihood of life developing on the planet, the discoverers said.
"It's pretty hard to stop life once you give it the right conditions," Vogt said.
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Dessert Buffet at Fudge Restaurant
Payday today! After shift, we went to Fudge Restaurant at 888 A.S. Fortuna St. Mandaue City. We had our very first Dessert Buffet for 175Php. This is the only restaurant in Cebu that offers eat-all-you-can desserts.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
85th Month
September 28, 2010 - The 85th Month of our best friendship.. I'm not myself right now.. I'm just sad, maybe.. I greeted her before I went to work. I'm glad she didn't forget this day. She's the one who first greeted mo. I miss her.. so much..
Australia's Next Top Model Finale - Epic Fail
Yes, that's what you call an Epic Fail. Very EPIC!
Monday night's finale of "Australia's Next Top Model" included one of the most cringe-worthy moments of the year, when host Sarah Murdoch announced the wrong name of the winner!
During the live TV finale, Murdoch announced 19-year-old Kelsey Martinovich was the new catwalk queen, defeating runner-up Amanda Ware — and proceeded to let Kelsey celebrate and even give a brief victory speech.
"I just want to thank the runners-up, they've been amazing and all the girls for keeping me on my toes," Kelsey beamed. "Ah, this is crazy!"
However, moments later, Murdoch — who married News Corp. media mogul Rupert Murdoch's son, Lachlan, in 1999 — became quiet and a shocked look came over her face as she listened to producers in her ear tell her she said the wrong name.
"Oh my God. I don't know what to say right now. I'm feeling a bit sick about this," a stunned Murdoch said on the air as the entire audience and the contestants went silent. "I'm so sorry about this. Oh my God. I don't know what to say. This is a complete accident, I'm so sorry. It's Amanda. It was fed to me wrong.
"This is what happens when you have live TV folks, I'm so sorry," Murdoch added. "This is insane."
However, as gracious as Kelsey was in her victory speech, she was equally polite in her realization of defeat.
"It's OK," she said as she comforted a visibly upset Murdoch. "It's an honest mistake. It's all right Sarah. It's fine!"
An equally stunned Amanda was caught off guard by the mix up and when given the stage to accept her title, she could only say "Really, thanks guys!" with a big smile on her face.
Read more at Yahoo! News.
Monday night's finale of "Australia's Next Top Model" included one of the most cringe-worthy moments of the year, when host Sarah Murdoch announced the wrong name of the winner!
During the live TV finale, Murdoch announced 19-year-old Kelsey Martinovich was the new catwalk queen, defeating runner-up Amanda Ware — and proceeded to let Kelsey celebrate and even give a brief victory speech.
"I just want to thank the runners-up, they've been amazing and all the girls for keeping me on my toes," Kelsey beamed. "Ah, this is crazy!"
However, moments later, Murdoch — who married News Corp. media mogul Rupert Murdoch's son, Lachlan, in 1999 — became quiet and a shocked look came over her face as she listened to producers in her ear tell her she said the wrong name.
"Oh my God. I don't know what to say right now. I'm feeling a bit sick about this," a stunned Murdoch said on the air as the entire audience and the contestants went silent. "I'm so sorry about this. Oh my God. I don't know what to say. This is a complete accident, I'm so sorry. It's Amanda. It was fed to me wrong.
"This is what happens when you have live TV folks, I'm so sorry," Murdoch added. "This is insane."
However, as gracious as Kelsey was in her victory speech, she was equally polite in her realization of defeat.
"It's OK," she said as she comforted a visibly upset Murdoch. "It's an honest mistake. It's all right Sarah. It's fine!"
An equally stunned Amanda was caught off guard by the mix up and when given the stage to accept her title, she could only say "Really, thanks guys!" with a big smile on her face.
Read more at Yahoo! News.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
So Long Zagu, Hello Quickly
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| Quickly Taro Ice + Nata |
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| Quickly Taro Ice Special |
Strike 2 Old Lady!
When I arrive home from work, the only thing that I wanted to do is to be in front of my computer and get a nice sleep. Then there came our room. I guess somebody got inside again and made all these mess. Not really a mess though, the curtains are removed and not replaced, and I think the floor was swept but the dust are all over my computer especially the keyboard. What pisses me off is the thought that the arrangement of things in the room and how it looks like was changed without prior notice. The foams are just over the double deck bed and was not arranged the way it was. I need to do a lot of arrangements before I can lay down and sleep. I bet my boardmates are not the one who did this because I strongly believe that they will put everything in order. I have only one suspect - the landlady. She might be the owner of this boarding house but it doesn't mean that she can do anything she wants in our room. We paid for this and we're not destroying anything. And it's our discretion if we want somebody to clean this for us. What made me mad, everything is not in order! We have the right to privacy! I'm really pissed off.. Good thing I have a Bigbang chocolate, it somehow cooled me down. I don't want this to happen again. It's not the first time, and I hope this will be the last.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Weekend at Tabuelan
September 18, 2010
We're supposed to go to Bantayan Island, as planned. We're already inside the V-Hire that will take us there. Considering the travel time, we all decided to change the location: Durhan White Beach Resort in Tabuelan, Cebu.
From Tabuelan, we went straight ahead to Lemon Grass Restaurant in Ayala Center Cebu and we had a sumptuous dinner. Thanks for a great weekend friends! :p
We're supposed to go to Bantayan Island, as planned. We're already inside the V-Hire that will take us there. Considering the travel time, we all decided to change the location: Durhan White Beach Resort in Tabuelan, Cebu.
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| Inside the V-Hire.. before we decided to go Tabuelan.. |
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| Mark, Shine, Jhean, Milan and Luke |
From Tabuelan, we went straight ahead to Lemon Grass Restaurant in Ayala Center Cebu and we had a sumptuous dinner. Thanks for a great weekend friends! :p
Thursday, September 23, 2010
I saw this coming..
I know this time would come.. the time that the truth will prevail.. and then the untold truth..
I was in the office, accessed WebMessenger and Eng, sent me a message.. She asked me if I heard about the news. She said that Bez and her had a conversation. I know what to expect when Eng initially asked me that question. And I am right. Bez and the father of her child are now okay. Eng said that they met yesterday and after that, everything's alright as if nothing happened. Their issues between themselves have been resolved. I guess that's what love really can do. I know she still loves him. I can feel it. I knew it.
What we had, is just a virtual relationship, a relationship that never really existed. It's a hoax. It's just a dream... and I believed it.. No, I believed her. I trusted her, though I know this would happen. I just felt so bad for myself. I thought I'd be the happiest man in the world. I thought my sacrifices will all be paid for. I thought I'd win the heart of the only person I love. I thought I could spend the rest of my life with her. I thought we'd be happy together. I thought I now have the reason to go back. I thought I have the love of my life. Well.. I guess all these will remain as thoughts. Reality check. Reality check. Reality check. Look at the man in the mirror. Is that the man you think she would spend her life with? Impossible. I never lose hope. I said they're not yet married anyway. Once again, I thought, she would realize that all she's been looking for is all here along.. waiting for his turn. I said, it doesn't matter if I'm not the first. I want to be her last. Impossible. I guess I'm too late. The line is already closed. No more chance passengers. No more..
I still appreciate the thought, that when she needs somebody, I'm the one she'll be looking for. I'm just too blind to see. I'm blinded by this feeling that I've been keeping for 7 years.. and more years to come. I thought I should've moved on. I thought I did. I just looked stupid. I'm still a loser. Time to say good bye to my hopeless dreams. They won't come true. They never will.
I'm happy for her. I'm happy that everything will be alright. I'm happy that her family will be complete. I'm happy that they learned from what happened and I hope that it will never happen again.
I hope, she will inform me that they're okay and she won't give me false hopes. She's my best friend anyway. I will understand.
I was in the office, accessed WebMessenger and Eng, sent me a message.. She asked me if I heard about the news. She said that Bez and her had a conversation. I know what to expect when Eng initially asked me that question. And I am right. Bez and the father of her child are now okay. Eng said that they met yesterday and after that, everything's alright as if nothing happened. Their issues between themselves have been resolved. I guess that's what love really can do. I know she still loves him. I can feel it. I knew it.
What we had, is just a virtual relationship, a relationship that never really existed. It's a hoax. It's just a dream... and I believed it.. No, I believed her. I trusted her, though I know this would happen. I just felt so bad for myself. I thought I'd be the happiest man in the world. I thought my sacrifices will all be paid for. I thought I'd win the heart of the only person I love. I thought I could spend the rest of my life with her. I thought we'd be happy together. I thought I now have the reason to go back. I thought I have the love of my life. Well.. I guess all these will remain as thoughts. Reality check. Reality check. Reality check. Look at the man in the mirror. Is that the man you think she would spend her life with? Impossible. I never lose hope. I said they're not yet married anyway. Once again, I thought, she would realize that all she's been looking for is all here along.. waiting for his turn. I said, it doesn't matter if I'm not the first. I want to be her last. Impossible. I guess I'm too late. The line is already closed. No more chance passengers. No more..
I still appreciate the thought, that when she needs somebody, I'm the one she'll be looking for. I'm just too blind to see. I'm blinded by this feeling that I've been keeping for 7 years.. and more years to come. I thought I should've moved on. I thought I did. I just looked stupid. I'm still a loser. Time to say good bye to my hopeless dreams. They won't come true. They never will.
I'm happy for her. I'm happy that everything will be alright. I'm happy that her family will be complete. I'm happy that they learned from what happened and I hope that it will never happen again.
I hope, she will inform me that they're okay and she won't give me false hopes. She's my best friend anyway. I will understand.
For the shortest time, I still felt that I was loved.. that my love has been reciprocated. I hope that was real. I don't want to think that my weakness has been taken advantage of. So long.. so long my almost lover..
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
Mark Read - Owe it all to you (CD version) + lyric
was it you, was it me i don't know
why were holding on when we should have let go
you will always dance in my eyes
but there's something i got to say
before you walk away this time
cho:
i owe it all to you
cause you showed me a world i could never see
and now i know the truth, you were always right in front of me
and there's nothing to hold me back now
and there nothing i can't go through
i owe it all to you
did you know i was longing to fly
when you held my hand and you told me don't cry
i never thought i hear this goodbye, no
but there's something i got to say
before you turned away tonight
cho:
i owe it all to you
cause you showed me a world i could never see
and now i know the truth, you were always right in front of me
and there's nothing to hold me back now
and there nothing i can't go through
i owe it all to you
how come the damage is done
the feeling is gone, and we can't escape it
right now i'm shouting out loud
the chain is so strong but i have to break it
i gonna run,im moving on
im always be grateful to you
ohh, i owe it all to you
i owe it all to you
i owe it all to you, ohh
cho:
i owe it all to you
cause you showed me a world i could never see
and now i know that is true, you were always right in front of me
and there's nothing to hold me back now
and there nothing i can't go through
i owe it all to you
i owe it all to you
all to you
i owe it all to you
i owe it all to you
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
The Proposal
I'm just thinking about what if I will marry Divine someday..
When I arrived, she texted me and she's proposing.. "Marry me, this December."
When I arrived, she texted me and she's proposing.. "Marry me, this December."
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Before I go to sleep..
I'm going to sleep na.. That was a long weekend indeed. Back to work later. Expect for a high call volume. I hope I could take calls later..
I'm still bothered about what I read earlier this morning..
Tomorrow, sana masettle ko na ung mga dapat ipalaundry..
I love Divine.. I want to spend the rest of my life with her.. Sana nakapagchat kami kanina, kaso walang chance.. Sana mapanaginipan ko sya para maganda gising ko.. :D
I'm still bothered about what I read earlier this morning..
Tomorrow, sana masettle ko na ung mga dapat ipalaundry..
I love Divine.. I want to spend the rest of my life with her.. Sana nakapagchat kami kanina, kaso walang chance.. Sana mapanaginipan ko sya para maganda gising ko.. :D
Christian Bautista - "I Remember The Girl"
Christian Bautista's latest music video.. with Cristine Reyes.. :D
Monday, September 6, 2010
September 7, 2010
Me and Divine had a conversation yesterday through Windows Messenger. Tinatanong nya kung tanggap ko ba sya, kahit ganon ang kanyang sitwasyon. Sinabi ko oo..
Mula noong malaman kong nagdadalang tao sya, sabi ko sa sarili ko, eto na nga yung katapusan. Dun na magtatapos ang mga pangarap ko, at mga pangarap ko sa kanya. Bubuo na sya ng sarili nyang pamilya, at alam kong magiging masaya sya. Alam ko rin na mahal nya ang ama ng bata. Matagal rin na naging sila. Sa katunayan, tumitira na sila sa isang tahanan mula noong huling uwi ko sa Teresa, noong May 2008. Di na ko magtataka kung balang araw, mangyayari to, at nangyari na nga. Kasal na lang ang kulang sa kanila, isa na talaga silang pamilya. Nung nalaman kong sa isang bahay na sila nakatira, oo syempre nasaktan ako. Sobrang sakit. Plano ko pa naman, paguwi ko, lalakasan ko na loob ko at sasabihin ko na lahat. Nangako ako sa kanya na apat na taon lang akong mawawala, pagkagraduate ko, uuwi na ko. Hindi talaga natin hawak ang panahon, at pagkakataon. May mga bagay talagang nagbabago. Marahil pati ako nagbago na rin, pero hindi nagbabago ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya. Sabi ko sa kanya noon, "I built a wall around my heart that would only break apart for you." Oo.. isa rin ito sa mga binitiwan kong salita na tutuparin ko, na hanggang sa kasalukuyan tinutupad ko pa rin. Lagi nilang sinasabi saken, "Move on..", "Let go..". I know that's the right thing to do. Ano ba ang tama?
Minsan naisip ko, wala rin palang saysay ang mga sakripisyo ko. Kasama na roon na kelangan kong iendure kung ano man ang tawag ng ibang tao saken. Oo, ako na ang loser. Ako lang pala ang nagsasakripisyo, at ako lang din naman ang gumawa ng sakripisyong to para sa sarili ko. Mukha naman silang masaya, at lalo pa silang sasaya ngayong meron nang anghel sa buhay nila.. At ako, I can stay here in Cebu longer.. hanggang makahanap ng isa pang tao na magpapahalaga saken tulad ng pagpapahalaga nya.. Di ako expressive. Minsan ko nga lang sya ikontak noon.. Ayoko kasing ako pa maging dahilan ng away nila. Tama na saken na iniisip ko sya araw-araw, kahit walang kapalit.
Alam kong malabo na.. wala nang pag-asa. Di pa naman sila kasal.. Marahil, yan na lang ang pinanghahawakan ko. Last month, on the rocks na nga sila. At noon ngang August 16, our status changed.. thanks to facebook. At sineryoso ko naman. Sineryoso ko, malay mo seryoso rin sya. Kahit sa online man lang, naging kami. Ang loser ko talaga. Pero these past few days, nakakapagusap naman kami ng seryosohan. I felt that I was loved. She loves me.. at bumalik ang feeling na parang high school ako. The feeling of being in-love. Napatunayan ko sa sarili ko na mahal ko pa rin talaga sya, at mas lalo ko pa syang minahal. Ayoko isipin na ginagawa nya to dahil marami syang problema ngayon, at kelangan nya ng may magkakalinga sa kanya. Ayoko rin itake advantage ang sitwasyon. Ang gusto ko lang, iparamdam ko sa kanya na may nagmamahal pa rin sa kanya sa kabila ng kanyang sitwasyon. Tanggap ko sya kahit ano pa ang nakaraan nya. Hindi mahalaga kung meron na syang anak. Lahat naman tayo, nagkakamali minsan. Kelangan lang natin ng mga taong tatanggap at uunawa sa anumang kamaliang ating nakamit. Wala namang perpekto. Kahit ako, iniisip ko na isa rin akong failure sa buhay nya. At ayokong dumadagdag sa mga failure nya kung di kami magwork.
I love her.. I love Divine.. That's all I know. I can't imagine myself spending the rest of my life with anybody else but Divine..
August 28, 2010
August 28, 2010 - It's the 7th year anniversary of our best friendship. This day really meant to me. We're still far from each other. My gift to her was the video I created, which is a compilation of our memories, mostly the gifts and letters she gave me that I kept and still with me. The background music is "I Will Remember You" by Ryan Cabrera which perfectly fits the the theme of the video. I'm still having a trouble uploading the video to Youtube because it won't accept the audio. It's about copyright issues and I'm still finding another audio that Youtube will accept. I let her see the video through 4shared.com.
I really missed her. I still love her.. I can still wait for another 7 years to prove her that I will never find somebody else that could replace her in my heart. I love her so much. I just don't know how can I show this to her.. I hope, when our paths crossed again, I'll have the courage to tell her how I feel. I know there'll be a right time for that..
Succeeded to Fail
August 16, 2010
I knew this is the night to make a decision. I made up my mind. I don't want the position. I don't care if I'll be promoted. But later that day, I am not really the one who decided for myself. It's them. I did not get the position. I'm happy it turned out that way. I'm still guilty though. Jaz trained me for about a month, and I failed her. I failed another somebody again. I think it would be better this way. I maybe qualified for the position, but I know I'm not the right person to have it. I will be back to be a normal agent soon, which is a good thing. I will still get my incentives and I can go home early.
I'm still thankful that I was considered for the position, and I appreciate the trust Jaz gave me. Though I failed again, this failure is a success. I succeeded in failing this, and I'm happy for it. :D
I knew this is the night to make a decision. I made up my mind. I don't want the position. I don't care if I'll be promoted. But later that day, I am not really the one who decided for myself. It's them. I did not get the position. I'm happy it turned out that way. I'm still guilty though. Jaz trained me for about a month, and I failed her. I failed another somebody again. I think it would be better this way. I maybe qualified for the position, but I know I'm not the right person to have it. I will be back to be a normal agent soon, which is a good thing. I will still get my incentives and I can go home early.
I'm still thankful that I was considered for the position, and I appreciate the trust Jaz gave me. Though I failed again, this failure is a success. I succeeded in failing this, and I'm happy for it. :D
Inno3d GEForce GT 220 1GB
August 15, 2010 - Finally, I was able to buy my computer a video card. I bought this Inno3d GEForce GT 220 1gb ddr2 128bit HDMI at PC Express in the North Reclamation area, just in front of SM City Cebu. It costs P3000.00. I'm not a full time gamer, but I decided to buy this so that I can play Disciples III.
Here are the complete specifications and features of this video card.
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Key Features:- |
NVIDIA® Unified Architecture |
NVIDIA® CUDA™ technology |
Microsoft Windows 7 Support |
DirectCompute Support |
OpenCL Support |
NVIDIA® PureVideo® HD technology |
High Definition 1080p Display Support |
NVIDIA® PhysX® technology |
Dual-link DVI, VGA & HDMI 1.3a output |
Dual-link HDCP Capable |
PCI Express 2.0 support |
Microsoft DirectX 10.1, Shader Model 4.1 support |
OpenGL 3.1 support |
Superb Graphics
Modern games and 3D applications demand more graphic performance than every before and Intel integrated graphics simply isn’t enough. The Inno3D® GeForce® GT 220 packs 48 processing cores into a compact power efficient design delivering up to 30x the performance of Intel integrated solutions. In order to play today’s top PC games it is essential to equip your PC with the Inno3D® GeForce® GT 220 & GeForce® 210.
Fantastic Video
Get all the video processing power that your digital lifestyle requires. Edit your home video and post it to Facebook or YouTube 4x faster with the Inno3D® GeForce® GT 220 & GeForce® 210. Convert your video and put it on your iPod in minutes instead of hours or make your DVDs look like HD.
Premium Windows 7 Experience
Graphics processing units (GPUs) are an essential element of today’s PCs, enabling more visual and more interactive experiences. As a leader in visual computing and the inventor of the GeForce GPU, NVIDIA worked closely with Microsoft on the development of Windows 7 to ensure that its GPUs take full advantage of the great new features and functionality. If you use your PC to enhance photos, watch or edit videos, play games, or if you simply desire a fast and efficient graphical interface, Inno3D offers a premium experience with Windows 7.
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